I Am Meeting A Boy For The First Time ..
Today, I am meeting a boy for the very first time to see if we would make a good match.
I have been looking at his pictures every so often since I got them last night. I just can't help myself. Is it his eyes or cute smile that capture my attention and make him so adorable?
What does he like to do? What are some of his favorite dishes? Would he like my cooking? What makes him happy?
I have to tell you, I didn't get much sleep last night in anticipation of our first meet-up. Spent all night thinking - what should I wear? This morning, I think I changed my outfit about 4 different times!
"Should I wear something simple? Colorful? What would my outfit say about me? What would he think? What would he say about my hair? A first impression is a big one you know.
I decided on something both colorful and simple. Just to be on the safe side ;-)
I can't tell you how nervous I am. Me? Nervous? What? Why?
I tell myself, that I didn't sign up for something long term, I mean there is an understanding that this is a trial. I clearly stated that I wanted to try things out, again, keeping it simple. Right? What's there to be nervous about?
Those butterflies, yes, those butterflies rise up within me and yes, I do get a little scared, because there is this part of me that wonders if, with just one look into his eyes, that I might accidentally fall deeply in love with this boy and my whole life as I know it will change forever. Will not only change the course of my life but his as well.
Not just his destiny or mine, but ours.
Deep down inside I know myself very well and my potential to love.
I mean, abiding by my "original plan" .. things weren't suppose to gear up until next Spring. But now, I have this opportunity staring right before me and I can't help myself I can't resist grasping what's before me because I don't want to loose out on what could possibly be the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I must refocus now, its only our first meet-up. Who knows, maybe it won't work out - and I am looking too far ahead in the future.
But yet, those butterflies still remain along with the anticipation and right now, it's the best feeling in the world.
~ Thoughts Of A Potential First Time Foster Parent By: Jenny Chamberlain ~